.Thursday, December 17, 2009 ' 12:43 PM
Would Time Heal This Wound?!
14th December 2009
~The last hug that made me cry for hours and hours!~
The day that I lost something so close and dear to me! Will time ever heal this wound? Its been 3 days now and I am still moping and not able to get it off my mind!.. I hate the feeling of being upset all the time.. It hurts.. Does anyone around me know and understand the feeling? Is anyone able to help me feel whole again? Never have I ever felt this lost..
14th December 2009, considered the worst day of 2009.. I cried for hours and hours and hours before I actually managed to sleep! I was there when she packed, I was there when we had our last starbucks session.. I was there to send her to the airport.. I was there to accompany her through her last day.. I am glad she spent her last day with me!
Few more pics from the last moments....
When would i get to see her again??!!
On Tuesday night, Jeremy, Grace and my cousin sister accompanied me to Neway Karaoke to help me in my 1st attempt to be my happy self again.. I thought it worked at the beginning but then towards the end, the feeling jus returned.. so, all in all it kinda was a 50% success and 50% failure!
Wednesday, picked my cousin sister then met Shaliz and Dan in Midvalley, had a chat with them and then we went to Andalus in Damai, for some shisha.. it was good shit cuz the shisha made me stoned and kinda forget things a little.. This is attempt was kinda a success.. Even met Jill Wong! MY favourite Junior!! Hehe..
Until I got home. It kinda started sinking in again that Jeanie (my baby) is not ere in Malaysia.. I miss her sooooooo much it hurts to even think about it..
Thursday.. woke up at 11am!! Saw a msg from my baby on facebook! I know that its suppose to cheer me up but I have no idea why I kinda broke down again! Things are not that easy without her around.. haihz.. everything jus became 20 times harder to do and deal with.
Anyways, the day has to go on! I am currently moping on my bed.. But the time has come where I have to get my lazy ass off the bed and head to Sunway to pick some stuff up.. Then heading for lunch with the cousins.. Hopefully not in teluk gong! Stupid far place. I will die if we go there for lunch!
Xoxo!
.Monday, December 14, 2009 ' 9:44 AM
What is Life?~!
Its been forever since I last blogged.. Lots of things have been going off simultaneously.. my emotions have been up and down for the past week.. Who has been there for me? Who really understands what I am going through at the moment? Where is all my friends when I need them to talk to them? Communicating through the telephone is that enough?
Just a quick update :
Wednesday : 091209
1st – I is FREEEEE!! Exams are over! It was one heck of a tough 2 weeks for me! I suffered through hell and now I’m back in heaven! Thank God!
2nd – Lunchie with Gracey, then headed to Karaoke with Gabby, Grace, Jeremy and Shan! Well gotta say, Gabby did not open her golden mouth at all, Grace Jeremy and Me hogged the mics, Shan, well she came late and onie stayed for a while! Babe, You owe me a session! I miss hanging out with you laa…
Thursday : 101209
1st – woke up at a tremendously late hour! Hahaha.. Had such a peaceful sleep! It was heaven! I gotta say was enjoying my beauty sleep!
2nd – got a call from Gabby, she came and picked me and we headed to bangsar to go to the saloon! Man it was one expensive saloon~! =S Thanks Gabs!
3rd – Went to Mansion with Daniel, Pei li, Chwee yee, Edwin, and Rishi, to check out the College Freak Fest (-.-) event! Gotta say the crowd wasn’t too bad!
4th – Headed to zouk with Rishi… hmmm.. gotta say it was my suckiest night in zouk ever on the planet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FIRST, how the fark do they mess up the reservation?! Second, HOW THE FARK DO THEY GIVE ME SHIT TABLE IN ZOUK! How many freaking times have I gone there?! Third, When I invite you, you bring 1 or 2 friends not the whole jin bang without knowledge.. However, I gotta say they made it up by opening their own bottle in the end! Thanks guys for understanding!
5th – Saw Jopy (Classmate) in zouk! First time I hanged out with her for a while in a club! Gotta say it was fun! Cam whoring for a while, though I’m still waiting for the pics! Hahaha.. and then accompanied her for quite some time while she *Ahem ahem* in the toilet! Hahahahahahahaha… Still love ya jopy!
Friday : 111209
1st – 3 days in a row?! I was getting sick of the club scene! Jon came and picked me up from home at 7 something or is it 8? I had no idea.. I officially lost track of time on that day!
2nd – went for the Flux anniversary in MOS! Was super super bored! And they ran out of blardy Chivas by the time we got in.. super freaking 23908467648756874649837 times sucky! So left to go accompany Shaliz in el Habanero!
3rd – when I got there I felt like I moved to a different country! Seriously?! Wth was that about?! No comments reli……………………….
4th – record breaking I left the club at 2 something and was home!
Saturday and Sunday : 121209 – 131209
LONG FIGHTING DAYS WITH THE PARENTS! Don’t ask! I don’t even wanna talk about this 2 days! T.T
Monday : 141209
Sitting at starbucks at 9 am in the morning blogging about what jus happened since I had my freedom!! Not from my parents but from my stupid exams!
The only reason I am an early bird today is because…… my cousin sister stayed over at my hse and has her attachment with Sunway Hospital.. I had to get up and send her here only to know that her stupid attachment starts at 8.45am.. I wanna kill myself now! Ughhh.. hahaha.. anyways, managed to reach Sunway by 8am.. and so brought her to Medan to have her breakfast! Man the first time I came out with a girl that is so super duper blur! FML.. she did not even bring her wallet or a single sen! Thank God I asked her! If not she would be stuck the whole day without a single sen and would be suffering!
11.40pm.. the time that I am dreading! However, everyone knows when you dread something to happen the faster it happens! And I have no idea how to overcome that fear!
Who is going to pick me up like u do?! Whos gonna take my crap when ur not around too? Whos gonna listen to me when I just need to release what is bottled up inside of me?! Who is going to share their opinions with me? Not only that.. who is going to enjoy party time with me? WHos gonna get all excited about a night out with me? Whos gonna get dressed up with me? Whos gonna enjoy sushi with me?! Whos gonna do all the littelest things with me which we both find enjoyable? I really need you to stay but I know its an impossible wish… But hey, its not wrong for a girl to wish! I will miss you so much my baby girl! I will always and forever love you to bits and pieces! When u leave today you will take a part of me with you! I hope you know that! I’ve been told that nothing is easy.. But this is definitely one of the hardest things that I have had to face! I thank you for being such a great friend to me! One that loves and cherishes me for who I am! No matter what I do, I know you are the one person that I can depend on! The trust that you have in me and I have in you is not something built in a day! But hey, at least now I have a friend that I could one day visit when I go over…
Jeanie Kuan I don’t know how much do you read my blog! BUT PLS PLS PLS take care of yourself and remember that I will always love you and miss you and no matter what I will always be ere for u! You will always be my bestest friend on the whole freaking planet!
Anyways, I am gonna stop droning on and on and on now.. Jus gonna enjoy my coffee and go meet up with the baby later!
Signing off now!
xoxo
ps: pics will be up in the next post!
.Thursday, December 3, 2009 ' 10:03 PM
Lies Lies Lies~!
Liess.. why does everyone lie? What is the main motive of lying?! Giving false hope? White lies does matter sometimes.. But sometimes innocent white lies doesn’t matter.. I am glad that I am staying well away from people that lies!
UGHHHHH!!!! CORPORATE FINANCE!!! WTFF!! That is my only response to that paper.. The lecturer pretty much farked us up! Wth! I thought they are suppose to help their students not make their students fail! He just gave us false tips! WTF! Half the things he ask us to know did not COME OUT IN THE EXAMS! I wanna cry dy! Boohoooo~! =(
Anyways, came out from the exam hall super duperly stressed out! Was not in the mood to study anymore! So made plans with Grace who said would help me de-stress as it was out FML day! I had some issues in the morning and my stupid pencil box also has problem! FML! I hate this shit! OMG! I need a new pencil case! Anyone wanna get me one cute pink one?! Hahahahaha..
Went for dinner with the lil sis then headed to MOS for a few drinks! =) some pictures from last night while we were waiting to go to MOS!
~Me in the car~
Ok i look cute rite rite rite rite?!!!!
Ok maybe a little toooo much of me! hahahaha
~First shot with the Little Sis!~
~2nd shot! i like this one better =)~
Sometimes I feel safe with u but most of the time I have no idea what the hell do u want! I need to know. I hate being left out in the dark!
Thanking you lil sis for the awesome de-stressing night! Really appreciate it even though it was a bit boring! =)
Anyways time to start on my studying again for my paper tomorrow which I know jack! Hahahahahaha..
xoxo!
.Tuesday, December 1, 2009 ' 1:25 AM
Exams~!
Year 3, Term 1, finally coming to an end.. ~phew~
However, not soon enough! Exams started like today! Went in the exam hall, only knew how to do one out of the 4 questions I had to answer! WHAT THE HELL!!???? Stupid stupid stupid!
Anyways, 1 down 4 more to go! Wish me Luck guys and Gals!
Can’t wait for tomorrow de-stressing session at a cut and above!
Oh and of course meeting with the BFF! Jeanie Kuan! =) ♥
Gotta rush Now! Gonna talk to my lil sis before I cont studying! =)
xoxo
