.Thursday, December 17, 2009 ' 12:43 PM
Would Time Heal This Wound?!
14th December 2009
~The last hug that made me cry for hours and hours!~
The day that I lost something so close and dear to me! Will time ever heal this wound? Its been 3 days now and I am still moping and not able to get it off my mind!.. I hate the feeling of being upset all the time.. It hurts.. Does anyone around me know and understand the feeling? Is anyone able to help me feel whole again? Never have I ever felt this lost..
14th December 2009, considered the worst day of 2009.. I cried for hours and hours and hours before I actually managed to sleep! I was there when she packed, I was there when we had our last starbucks session.. I was there to send her to the airport.. I was there to accompany her through her last day.. I am glad she spent her last day with me!
Few more pics from the last moments....
When would i get to see her again??!!
On Tuesday night, Jeremy, Grace and my cousin sister accompanied me to Neway Karaoke to help me in my 1st attempt to be my happy self again.. I thought it worked at the beginning but then towards the end, the feeling jus returned.. so, all in all it kinda was a 50% success and 50% failure!
Wednesday, picked my cousin sister then met Shaliz and Dan in Midvalley, had a chat with them and then we went to Andalus in Damai, for some shisha.. it was good shit cuz the shisha made me stoned and kinda forget things a little.. This is attempt was kinda a success.. Even met Jill Wong! MY favourite Junior!! Hehe..
Until I got home. It kinda started sinking in again that Jeanie (my baby) is not ere in Malaysia.. I miss her sooooooo much it hurts to even think about it..
Thursday.. woke up at 11am!! Saw a msg from my baby on facebook! I know that its suppose to cheer me up but I have no idea why I kinda broke down again! Things are not that easy without her around.. haihz.. everything jus became 20 times harder to do and deal with.
Anyways, the day has to go on! I am currently moping on my bed.. But the time has come where I have to get my lazy ass off the bed and head to Sunway to pick some stuff up.. Then heading for lunch with the cousins.. Hopefully not in teluk gong! Stupid far place. I will die if we go there for lunch!
Xoxo!
