.Wednesday, April 20, 2011 ' 9:00 PM
Hidden Behind A Facade
Partying with the old friend Denesh and The sister in Velvet! =)
*this was a few weeks back! =)*
Yesterday, after all the arguments that we had, you told me that you were suppose to have ur day off.. You were suppose to spend it with me and we were suppose to go for a nice dinner and movie or something.. But what happened?
The whole day i spent waiting for you to be done with your work at papparich!! Ok, sitting at papparich was freaky as i kept remembering the moments that someone actually got arrested for working there! haha..
The night before you so called had to handle the event, so i stayed to accompany you as my parents were not home.. But then again, i sat there with my computer as company and entertainment.. U have a partner for godsake! ur partner can go MIA but u can't? why?
Fine, we spent half the day at Heritage Row for you to settle the problems that you had and the things that you had to do for that company you are working for.. Then finally we head off to pavillion for dinner, when we got there, the first thing your phone starts ringing again.. and its all abt business again.. and there i was enjoying dinner while u talked on the phone half the time during dinner..
Then we were suppose to watch movie, but knowing that ur stupid partner cannot make the effort to turn up to work as he said he would so that you can take ur time off, i gave in and allowed u to go for ur meeting with some stupid dude.. and we ended up at the same place again for you to do ur work..
You often told me that when we argued, u had to put on a smiley face and work and it is hard for u.. But i did it yesterday.. I was superbly upset and angry about how things went but yet, i put on a smile on my face and talked to your friend and the rest of the people around.. So how hard can it be? if i can do it don't you think it would have been easy for you to do it too?
You've let me down so many times since you've started working at this stupid place.. How many more times would you wanna let me down before you stop and start doing the right things when it comes to us? You do all the right thing for your job, but when it comes to us all the wrong things. how long would you want me to take it?
I can smile and laugh and joke about everything in front of everyone.. But can you see the me behind this happy girl facade that i have put on for everyone to see?
Our relationship is like a ticking time bomb which will explode at anytime..
Anyways, signing off for now..
Actually more like gonna continue watching criminal minds!! ahaha
xoxo
.Tuesday, April 19, 2011 ' 1:38 AM
HAPPY & SAD MEMORIES WHICH I WILL TREASURE!!
Been a while since i've been back ere! =)
Finally having the time to update update after like almost 6 Months!!
Many things has happened!! I have been going to zouk again.. Went on a trip to Penang.. Met some new friends, Finally meet some ppl face to face.. =) All in all there were some ups and downs...
Went down to Penang after i finished my exams.. It was an awesome 2 weeks there.. I didn't even wanna come back! It was so so much fun!! Met some new people!! Helped with my sister for doing some posters for her freshers week..
This was the blood donation drive poster that i made for her...
Some football competition between the seniors and juniors
St. Patrick's day celebration poster!! *After party was in QE 2 which of course was not written in the flyer!! * hahahahahaha
This picture is of me and my sister's PMC gang in QE 2 celebrating St. Patricks Day!!
The girlss!! =) My sister's girlieees...
I don't know who this people are, but i remember the indian guy can really drink!! =) I guess its in their blood!! hahahaha
Partying with the Sister & Her Penang Gang in Mois, Penang!!
The sister's Penang gang!! I love all of them they are so much fun to hang out with!!
A lil sisterly love of drinking!! =)
The sister's in action, forcing the photographer to finish all 2 glassed of our drink!!!
Kawaii Sisters!! =)
Need I say more?! *The Gang!*
I have no idea why my sis looks like this all i know is she wants me in the photo!! hahahahahaha
The sis was puking in the car and saying shut up shut up cuz everyone was picking on her!! =) hahahaha
Zouk 7th Anniversary With Ms Grace Low
The Lim and Low sisters in the car waiting for someone.... Need i mention who that someone is?!
Another person met at the anniversary after talking to her and sms-ing her for so long finally got the chance to meet her!! =)
A new friend, Jin Wong and Old friend Edwin and the Low sister! =)
It was an all in all awesome girls night out!! =)
These were all the happy happy moments that i had for the past few months when i have been missing from my blog.. In addition to that i PASS my exams with flying colours... i'm so God damn proud of myself!!! so is my mum and dad and sister!!! =)
Ever since those happy moments there are also some sad one..
I am currently feeling really heartbroken..
When u ask me if i wanna end it i don't know.. I guess it changed cuz u broke ur promise to me and started working in clubs again.. Not only that, you worked with the one person that i dislike and distrust the most.. I can accept him as a friend but not as a partner to you, the person whom i love and wanna protect the most..
I know that i love you still love you with a my heart, what hurts the most is when u say you love me i no longer know if its true or not.. Thats what hurts the most.. I hate this stupid place, it has drawn a wedge between the both of us.. and i no longer know if we can work this out.. You get paid, but u let someone else spend but not me, the one whom u say u wanna take care for the rest of your life.. How do you think i feel? When i have the money i let you spend it cuz u don't have any.. But when u do, am i like the last person on earth to know? And you say i condemn you? Of course i do!! Course i am the one person that is suppose to understand you but now i don't anymore. I feel like ur a stranger and i want the guy that i use to know!!!
U say u don't like me to be so close to guys in clubs, but ur line of job means you have to be super close to girls in the club.. Ok if its not super close, at least when they flirt with you u have to respond and you can't push them away.. I have made it clear from the start that i do not wanna share any part of you with any single girl out there.. Regardless of if they are taken or not.. This is how i want my relationship to be.. and with you working in this line of job, i have no idea if that is possible...
You give 99% of ur time, excluding the time you have to sleep with me plus lunch which prolly last half an hour to 45 mins.. Cuz then you have to rush off to work.. But hello, you first told me ur job is to deal with the DJ's and not with others stuff, now u end up having to be at the club like every single night till God knows what time cuz the club doesnt know how to shut down!!!!!!!
Our anniversary.. What did we do, hmmmm lemme seee... Sleep till 4 pm, then woke up and you told me you have to work tonite!!! hmmmmmm pissed off? I think its normal for me to be pissed off.. If you think not, then maybe not for you but for me yes.. If its so unimportant to you then just tell me, then i won't spend so much of my time thinking about it.. So from now on, i vow that everyday is a normal day to us.. No ANNIVERSARIES, NO VALENTINES, NO SPECIAL OCCASIONS period. I hope you are happy about it.. Just because i come out to see u tonite, does not mean that everything is ok.. so far, i am doing a good job to keep it cool and be friendly with your friends. But from now, i am going with what my heart say is right.. and if i don't want it then it means i dont want it..
You've taught me how to grow up.. You taught me how to love someone with all my heart.. You taught me to care for people.. You taught me how to take care of people.. But now maybe its time where i stop taking lessons from you and we go our own way.. What say you?
Anyways thats all for now people..
Will update next when i get the time.. and i promise it would not be so long!!!
Signing Off!!
xoxo
